No Turning Back

I don't think I have a choice. I have to neutralize the bacteria myself. I'm a little nervous. Okay, terrified. But this thing is a death sentence. We shouldn't be messing around with it. I'm no biologist, I know. So does everyone else here. I haven't spoken to Dani since we fought about it. Zeta said she'd handle it and then didn't. Lil practically begged me to drop it. "This is completely beyond the scope of your work. You have to stop before you jeopardize your standing with the company." But I don't want good standing with a transgov that would do this. Robin tried to warn me. Maybe she was right and Alterra really is unfixable. Maybe I deserve better than this. We all do. I've synthesized the antibacterial agent-- (rueful laugh). I know my biochem at least well enough to do that much. I've stashed some away in one of the Pengling research caves, south-east of the leviathan. That was probably the easy part. Now I just have to carry out the plan. Focus. Be brave. Worry about what happens next, after the threat is neutralized. They're going to know it was me. If they send me home-- when they send me home, where the ice isn't twenty feet thick, I can get my Augie bun back. We can cuddle under a nice warm blanket. Things with Robin will thaw out. They always do. Besides, I think she'll respect this. And then... maybe I'll start my own research outfit with an awesome team. I'd love to work on prosthetics again. Help people find peace and ease in their bodies. No more cold. No more spying. Nothing that can be misused. (breath) Alright. Now's my time. I've got this.